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My Family

2010-02-16T07:03:00.001-08:00

Chinese New Year has really been
a great time for me and my family.
we met on all first three days of the lunar new year
whenever i am around them,
I feel so soaked with love and warmth.

My uncles and aunts will ask how i am doing
my cousins and i, we will just sit there remembering old times
Then we will laugh at one another's silly behaviours when young
and realise how foolish we had been

We'll just hang around playing majong junior league or da4 xiao3
There is really nothing more i can ask for this family.
More gatherings perhaps?

It might sound really weird and mushy but...
If only time with them can come to a standstill.
I don't know how else to express this.
I just love my family.
Everyone who plays, played, and is still playing a part in it.

I've been to the mountain top with Jesus

2010-02-15T06:25:00.000-08:00

I’ve been to the mountain with Jesus.

I went there to meet him alone.
In silence I climbed up that mountain,

his voice up ahead leading on.
I knew when I reached my dear Saviour,

he’d have all the answers I need.

Blue skies opened up all around me

when Jesus met me at the peak.
Yes, I’ve been to the mountain with Jesus,

high above the clouds of my life,
where the Son shone warm on my face,

and my vision was cleared by his light.

I’ve been to the mountain with Jesus;

a trip he required of me.
He sent me by way of a valley;

a way that I never had been.
He knew that I needed to go there,

to find my way back to his grace.
I finally came to the summit

when broken I fell to my face.

Yes, I’ve been to the mountain with Jesus,

high above the clouds of my life,
where the Son shone warm on my face,

and my vision was cleared by his light.
I’ve been to the mountain with Jesus.

He carried me there on his wings.
Transfigured, I saw him before me,

as never before I had seen.
My heart overflowed with thanksgiving;

his praises I started to sing.
The world disappeared down below me;

I worshipped my Saviour and King!
Yes, I’ve been to the mountain with Jesus,

high above the clouds of my life,
where the Son shone warm on my face,

and my vision was cleared by his light.

©Deborah Bolack 2004

Came across this from a blog. It's so true isn't it. We have been through mountains and valleys with Jesus. He seems to be there leading us on.

change

2009-12-10T23:54:00.000-08:00

i think i ought to start blogging again.
i had no idea that a blog can actually make an impact in lives.

camp is coming.
think i should really start preparing for it.
i haven't really thought of my camp objectives though.

what i really want is to trust in God.
to trust that God will speak to me.
because sometimes i tend to doubt whether God will speak to me.
i should believe, shouldn't i?
only when i do so then will God speak.

i'm choosing to trust in His ways.
it's so difficult. i want to make the choice today.

children's ministry

2009-09-26T10:34:00.001-07:00

just wanna share my love for children's ministry.
children's ministry is something that i really want to invest my life in.
i feel that i really can learn alot for the children as i do children's ministry.
the child-like faith in these children are just so contagious.
when i see children just sing songs of praise and worship unto God,
my heart just unveils itself before God.
all i know is that if children can worship, what more myself.
i got so much to learn.
sometimes i get too carried away with just telling children to be quiet.
little did i know that i have been hindering them.
do it with them. have fun with them.
i have nothing to lose but a whole lot more to gain.

children gives the world the impression of noise, mess, and a whole lot of disturbance.
they are so much more to that. i am the future generation.
but the children are the future future generation.
the church will grow from glory to glory.
how is it possible if we are taking children's ministry so lightly?
children are the future of our church.
in order for the church to grow from glory to glory we need to raise a new generation of children.
when the children are discipled, they can like us go around to disciple others.
no one listens to children.
but when the are discipled, the words they speak will be so impactful to the generations to come.
not just that but it will impact the lives of many, not forgetting people who are adults.

i'll just take time to look at the children around me.
and i'm sure i'll find new insights and so many other things to learn.

thank you God

2009-08-25T08:28:00.000-07:00

wow God i really feel alot better
thanks for being faithful in my life.

why?

2009-08-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

i feel terrible. why?

persecution

2009-08-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

PERSECUTION WARRIORS!
Joel3:2b

2009-07-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

Woah! today God spoke to me during physics. how we really have to be a salt and light for his kingdom.

we were learning about light. mr ang took out this pointer and shone it in the light. it wasn't that visible. but the minute he switched off the lights, i could really see the significant spot of red light. it ws small but it did prove alot when in the dark.

later, mr ang took out sprayed water to allow us to have a view of the ray of light better. wow. the holy spirit is just like the water. sometimes, when we know we wanna do great things for God, we wanna shine for God, we don't know how to. we should allow the holy spirit to guide us towards how we can reach that goal.

also, i got hit and was super sinful during chem. i didn't bring chen file as i had not bothered to check timetable the day before. but then someone told me, "orh hor... you didn't bring your file! ni3 shi4 christian leh!"

i was like, God! what have i done. i totally ruined God's perfect and wonderful zhao1 pai2 again because i took it for granted.

God help me to grow to be more like you. and no other chance will be given to anyone for that matter to put you down.

colours of the wind

2009-07-21T08:13:00.000-07:00

Just ytd i had charisma class and God really spoke to me in the song, "colours of the wind"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TkV-of_eN2w

You think I'm an ignorant savage
And you've been so many places
I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see
If the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don't know?
You don't know ...

You think you own whatever land you land on
The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sunsweet berries of the Earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

How high will the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down, then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon

For whether we are white or copper skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains
We need to paint with all the colors of the wind

You can own the Earth and still
All you'll own is Earth until
You can paint with all the colors of the wind

wah through this song God really spoke to me about not judging others somtimes as we grow older in Christ, we think we know more things. the truth is we don't. we think others are incomparable to us, but the fact it, their not.

also how we should approach God's throne with child-likeness. there are so many things we can learn from a child. how a child will not be afriad to fight for what they want because their thinking is so pure. they just stretch and tip-toe. but we think of different ways and complicated ideas. sometimes, the simpliest things will be made difficult by us. how children have their expressions written all over their face. whether happy or sad. the other day i was watching the children play monopoly. i saw the disappointment when meisi lost. when she felt that it was unfair when they skipped her turn. things are just that simple isn't it. we cover up too much.

isn't it tiring?

cui

2009-06-09T19:06:00.000-07:00

its like one of the most cui-est moments of my life.
but i wanna thank God for those who stood by me and constantly help me to jiayou.
yup, thank God for MENG, LUANCHUN, JADE and most imptly, JESUS!!!

to meng:
hey shepherd, in my cui-est moment, you really did not give up on me or even lose hope me. in fact, you still believed in me. that itself is alr very encouraging. thank you for being ever so senstive towards how i feel. yup yup. that time after wfl when i told you i'm very cui, you even wanted to come down and find me. which is mad cause it is a waste of your time. yup, so THANKYOU!

to luanchun:
heyo lc! thank you for speaking into my life during the cui-est moment and really taking time off to pray for me. really glad i can spend time with you on monday. its really nice having someone like you in my life. you might not know, but i appreciate it alot. just wanna let you know, i'll always be here for you too! yup. love you loads! THANKYOU!

to jade:
yo jade! thank you for hearing me out and giving me all the encouragement. all these things that we both face, definitely we can overcome them together with God of course. at our cui-est moment, we shall press on together kay! haha. yup. muacks! THANKYOU!

to JESUS!
hello God! thank you for not giving up on me. all these problems that i face, i know that you'll be there to jiayou me! haha. i love you! THANKYOU!

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vision night

2009-04-14T04:56:00.000-07:00

VISION NIGHT!

wah that day God really spoke to me alot alot alot
its like He never spoke to me that long before
especially during worship
whee! really heard alot from Him
about how i should keep on cont on with a lot things
pioneering and stuff

i think mostly He spoke to me about loving Him as well
how a small young child can love Him
and go to Him,
whereas me, with the many things i'm shouldering,
i can get nowhere.

God, help me to be a salt and light unto the world
help me to love you and love others.
people can say i'm spiritual, holy, religious.

you understand.

with a pinch of salt

2009-02-25T04:47:00.000-08:00

i was made to blog today by clara, vicky and yuzi.
yeap today we soooooo totally went to with a pinch of salt today.
whee! but the damage was great...
the guys were super sian, the came only cause clara asked them too.

oh ya, today we had our talentime audi.
we did not prepare at all just 5 minutes before.
haha but still we thought that everything went smoothly!

today yuzi and i decided to change our pencil cases.
so we did but our stationary remained the same
only because yuzi didnt like my pens.
UNDERSTANDABLE!
okay okay! pics!

God's unfailing love and hope

2009-02-21T20:45:00.000-08:00

combined service ytd was WHOO!
didnt expect Ps Ben and Ps Dianah to go over the North America
with Ps Jeff and Claudia taking charge of hope singapore.

Ps Jeff really blew me of with his teaching ytd
its super cool and applicable esp the part on authenticity and humility
wah i felt super guilty then and was really crying out to God during alter call.

today was talking to God and starbucking with Jesus.
He spoke to me lot and comforted my heart.

i wonder how am i to carry on without him
i love God.

WHEE!

Running the race! Keeping the faith!

2009-01-23T17:19:00.000-08:00

wednesday night, my shepherd and had a long "race" home.
from chung cheng all the way back to toa payoh.
i can say we started well,
all ready ahd enthusiastic to go
not actually knowing that obstacles or "giants" in that sense,
lay just ahead.

yeap! along the way, there were times when we ust wanted to take the bus.
especially when we faced the "goliath" of the day.
THE HIGHWAY!
car zoomed at excurbulating speed.
but thank God! everytime we wanted to dash to the other side of the road,
God never fails to slow down the speed of the cars.
all coast is clear.

we reached with a tired but exhilarating hearts.
in 02.38.18.01

thank God we didnt give up along the race.
God really showed me how things in life can get really tough.
as we run this race with God,
problems will come
weariness seeps in
and one will fell like giving up.

not just that but God also showed me how is it like to end the race victoriously
a sense of excitement and joy is definite,
a sense of accomplishment is a sure.
there are so many other things i have to learn in this walk with God.
even when we come face to face with "goliath"
no fear! wih God, anything is possible!

at the day of the day,
do you chose to start and end victoriously?

saturday
24jan09
9.31am

new year!

2009-01-11T05:24:00.001-08:00

haven't been blogging for a real long time!
in this period of time, many things really happened.
restructuring resuts were out.

i have to admit,
i was really quite sad with the results at the beginning.
but i figured, it really had to do with my humility.
thank you God for giving me yet another chance to grow.
having only one sheep now is good.
not that i can slack more but that i can humble down more.
currently, i wanna concentrate more on God,
on helping yanjie grow,
and on glorifying God's name in school.

its true right?
it really does boil down to my relationship with God.

even still, i have many things to thank God for.
THANK GOD FOR MY NEW CLASS.
THANK GOD FOR MY SHEPHERD.
THANK GOD FOR MY SHEEP.
THANK GOD FOR MY TEACHERS.
THANK GOD FOR MY 'SM'S.
THANK GOD FOR HELPING ME IN MY COMPO.
THANK GOD FOR LETTING ME BE ABLE TO PULL THROUGH TILL NOW.
THANK GOD FOR BEING ABLE TO BREATHE AND LIVE ONE EXTRA DAY OF MY LIFE.
THANK GOD FOR GOD!
THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING!

IF I DO WELL, I PRAISE HIM!
IF I DONT, I PRAISE HIM!

it is your love that compels me and keeps me going.
i love you God!

Things Come And They Go

2008-11-25T19:28:00.000-08:00

haven't really been posting for very long.

i think God has reminded me that
He will never give too much for us to take.
all these things, my mum and bro going malaysia.
not being to go overseas in this hols for the very first time.
problems. overwhelming emotions.

some problems are really tough.
God, i'm afraid of her.
i cannot expect. its happening again.
i don't want it to start all over.

God, you help me.
i'm waiting for you to show yourself real to me.
God, you use me.
use me to speak into her life.
i don't wanaa be afraid.
God, you tell me what to do.

happy birthday jade!

2008-10-31T08:58:00.000-07:00

wah spent a whole night at jade's house ytd
we were talking abouit silly stuff! hehe
den celebrated her birthday for her together with cher.
prayed for jade and affirmed her
hehe! i successfully made jade cry though i have no intention to.
yeah and just wanna scream here in my blog
that i love her lotsss!
truckloads of love and friendship!
we already promised each other that we will hold each other's hands
and run towards the finishing line together!

I LOVE YOU JADE!
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

MUACKS AND TRUCKLOADS OF LOVE!

saturday
1nov2008

2008-10-19T06:33:00.000-07:00

God has really been moving
big time in my family through my bro.

there was once recently after service,
we went back
because hopekids usually have momory verses
then my bro claimed that he wanted to go back to the car
as he wrote something on the dashboard
that he wants to see. he even asked me to take a pic of it
just so that he can view it better
i was dragging my feet as i sort of crawled towards the car
when i got there, i realised, my bro just wanted to rmb
a verse so that he can go back and look it up in the bible
and really go and memorise the verse.
wow, i was really amazed by how God moved in him
his willingness to want to do is great
he even did QT with me once which was great
for an active boy like him

today, before my bro went hopekids,
he requested greatly to bring his wallet
so that he can tithe his pocket money
i did not force him to do so
neither did i point a gun to him to do so
he just did and even told my mum his reason
thank God! she wasn't listening!

also, he asked his friend zhiling down for service
next week just like putting the things he learnt into practice
like when they thought in hopekids today
to bring people to come and know God

wow! i can't imagine and still am suprised
by how God moves.
He moves in such a quick way, unexpectedly

God, you are always like that!
full of ideas! i have to say, definitely,
I SERVE A CREATIVE GOD!

i really love God inspite all the lousy results i'm getting
my friends think i smile cause i didn't study
but because i know that i have God and He is living in me
whee! i love God. God you rock my socks! *screams*

sunday
19 october 2008

GOD IS MOVING!

2008-09-21T07:05:00.001-07:00

God has been really moving these few months.
not only in me but also in my family.

only a few weeks ago,
my bro joined hope kids and joined our great big family!
and now,
MY MUM SAYING SHE WANTS TO GO FOR SUNDAY SERVICE?
ahhhhh! GOD IS MOVING!
this is the most unexpected thing ever.
i mean my bro? and now my mum?

God is really moving in my family.

can't contain my joy.
the joy God gives never fails to take my breath away.

wahhh. can't wait for the day where my whole family serves God tgt.

can't imagine us standing at the finishing line tgt!

please keep my mum in prayers.
so that she will take that step of faith to come and know God.
pray that she will convert.

God will move so greatly and abundantly.
by faith, she will convert.
ahh. GOD!

God always move in such ways.
how can one not love Him?

at least, how can we afford to?

dearest shepherd,

2008-09-01T10:50:00.000-07:00

dearest shepherd,

ah thanks for the letter.
it is really sweet.
you know de.. you know i will cry de
i can't believe you made me cry

lets continue to grow tgt more in Christ.
as we start growing closer
you never fail to be there for me,
be it in sad or happy times
the first person that comes into my mind is you
talking to you is alr part of my life

thanks for always being there
i hope and pray that as we continue to run this race tgt
our friendship will grow closer and closer each day

i just want to say,
I LOVE YOU SHEPHERD!
THOUGH YOU MAKE ME CRY
I STILL LOVE YOU TO THE CORE!
MUACKS!

love and sealed with a kiss,
sheep misha

1John1,1John2,1John3

2008-08-31T10:35:00.000-07:00

no more space left in my notebook to jot down the things i've learn during qt
so i have to blog about it instead

1John1, 1John2, 1John3
in 1John1, i learnt that God is out light. wherever we go and in everything we do, God is there to guide me through my life to be our light. God is a gracious God. therefore, we must humble ourselves before God. when we sin, don't claim to be w/o sin and the truth will not be in us. but if we claim that we sin and ask for forgiveness, God will forgive. still, we must rmb that in whatever circumstances, we cannot take God's grace for granted.
in 1John2, i learnt that we must not love the world. we must not love worldly things because worldly things will not last. and on earth, there are only cravings of a sinful man. whatever we crave for on earth are sins. it doesn not come from God but the world. we must always be wary of antichrists. they are just satan, coming to attack us through our weak points. but we know, that if we stand strong in God, nothing can stop us. satan is nothing.
in 1John3, i learnt that we should all love one another. if we say that we love one another but we don't show it out then it doesn't mean anything. it is worthless. but if we don't tell anyone that we love them , instead, we shower them with love, then we can let the love of God be in us and in him as well. if we ourselves don't love our own brothers and sisters, we are as good as murderers. i must really learn to love people more. not just through words but through actions as well.

in these 3 chapters, God alr spoke a lot to me. i want to change for His kingdom so i can do more.
i want to love ppl more. i don't want to be a murderer in God's eyes.

RESTRUCTURING

2008-08-31T08:45:00.000-07:00

there were minor changes in the whole cg for restructuring
its scary at first but it turned out well
i mean we need for growth rite?

ultimately, i still love this family of God
though there are changes, we're still a unit
God, i will go all the way out for your kingdom.
people ask me what is my ambition, i say,
to serve you till the very end
and not just serve you for the sake of serving
but to serve you cause i love you and i want to see ppl getting to know you
i surrender eveything to you

grass

2008-08-14T08:27:00.000-07:00

was doing my chinese online homework that was due ages ago.
probably last last thursday?? i dunno.
that was when i stumbled upon this really meaningful passage.
didnt really get the whole thing ( as you know my chinese cmi)
i didnt read the passage at all, just getting to the main part that was wad's most impt.
that was when i read the last para, it really touched me.

if i'm not wrong, it meant,
people are like grass, whose lifes are like unstable floorings.
when we face problms, the thing that will pick us up is our hard work and effort.
only then can we start blooming like gorgeous flowers.

after i read just tt mere two lines,
i had a burning desire to share this story to everyone.
i believe God wants to tell us that we are all like grass.
we appear out to be small and of no use.
but actually we are stable and nothing can cause us to defeat.
grass, can withstand almost everything is all kinds of weather.
whether wind, rain or shine, its still there.
try heating grass or putting it on fire.
it is almost impossible.
we must all cease to be like grass, small yet stable.
only then can we do much for the KOG.

at the same time, grass may be stable but a whole grass patch is uneven
have you ever seen a grass patch that is smoothened out like normal marble tile flooring.
no, it is uneven. just like our lifes.
God didnt promise us life like a bed of roses.
but instead, we have a life like a grass patch.
yes, we'll face probs here and there on our lifes,
but we know tt life like a patch of grass.

we have to all do the best for the KOG.
and the problems help us.
only when we fall, then we will learn how to pick ourselves up again.
and we have God with us.
good results come with hard work.
and only when we do the best for His kingdom
then will we be able to grow and bloom like a beautiful flower.

黄昏散步，已成为我生活中的一部分。一天，我照样踏着轻快的脚步在小路上走着，享受夕阳的余光，也让清风吹去我的疲倦和烦恼，让全身的细胞都松弛下来。
咦，这儿怎么冒出一棵芽，而且，不偏不倚地从路的中央冒出来。
好奇的我，禁不住上前仔细观察。它显得那么瘦弱，仿佛碰一下就会倒似的。看它弱不禁风的样子，大概不需几天就会枯了吧！从那天起，它成为我每天注视的焦点。看着它一天比一天高，一天比一天有朝气，有活力，我十分惊奇，这或许是奇迹吧！
它默默地生长着。有一天，它开了数朵白花，随风摇摆。看那一朵朵朴实无华的小白花，虽然没有玫瑰的艳丽，没有水仙的幽香，但是显得那么楚楚可怜，完全是一副与世无争的模样。
人，就像那株小草；人生，就像一条不平坦的道路。要突破难关，没有任何捷径，只有努力。只有努力，才能绽开胜利的花朵，才有成功的希望。

JUMP (Jesus U Must Praise) 2008

2008-07-30T09:04:00.000-07:00

JUMP (Jesus U Must Praise) 2008

Imagine yourself in Nexus on a Saturday, jumping and grooving along to the praise and worship. Now, take away the green and blue chairs, the carpet flooring, and oh, the roof of Nexus Auditorium, and replace them with grass, trees and fluffy clouds instead!
Come August 22nd, from 7.30pm to 9.30pm, come join us at Fort Canning Green for our first-ever evangelistic worship concert under the stars! Don't miss this chance to invite pre-believing friends, and don't forget to grab the limited edition JUMP fun pack and badge!

yeahh people! the jump concert is nearing!
now i'm making an invitation to all!
all are invited! please do feel free to join me if you are interested.
whether you are passing this blog or just reading for the sake of reading this post.
you are also invited to this concert!
hehe. just let me know!
interested parties can leave their contact by tagging my blog.
the ones that do not want to reveal by tag can always e-mail me at
GodBlessU4eva@hotmail.com

hope to see you all there! it is going to be of soooo much fun!!! :D

i need more anointing

2008-07-28T07:18:00.000-07:00

woah! just had retreat!
wa. can't believe yj brought us for karaoke!

anyway, God is gonna move big time this week.
chung cheng is definately gonna be a school
that sends out many pioneering teams
to pioneer other schools.
i want to win chung cheng for God!
and by faith, i claim that chung cheng belongs to our Daddy!

last week went fast. with just a flip of a page.
and a whole week is gone.
it seemed to be just ytd.
it wasn't really productive. ah. what went wrong?!
after much prayers, anaylising and reflections,
i found out that the main problem that
caused our terrible confirmation last 2 ess weeks
was that our whole team was no hiong enough.
and we did a lot of last minute work.

its like saying we built a house.
but it was done in 5 minutes.
the cement haven't even dried yet.
when the rain came, the whole house just fell.

God, i want to do so much more for your kingdom.
but how can i? if i dun have the help from God?
i need the pioneering team to be all ready.
we will win chung cheng tgt.
i cannot do it myself.
what is the point of saying sth for the sake of sth.
forgetting the things once told.
ahhhhh. God. please, i need more anointing.

THANK YOU DEARS

2008-07-22T09:17:00.001-07:00

i just read my taggs.
the taggs that my lovely sisters give me is always so encouraging
it neva fails to keep my tears from flowing
i am really touched by these encouragement you give me

just want to thank you girls!
whenever i am down, upset.
i know that God is always there for me and this bunch of sisters too.

THANK YOU JACQ, JADE, MENG, LEOW, SZEMIN
for all yr encouragement.
i feel so loved by all of you.
i really thank God for you all.
i never fail to cry when i read these little taggs by you girls.
you are always there for me.
now i know i never have to be afraid
because i got God with me and my whole spiritual family there for me

to jacq <3
thanks for always being there. when i am upset and down,
all the little encouragements u give me always seem to make me tear
i feel so loved by you. at least now i know, God isn't the only one
that loves me.

to jade <3
jade dear. whenever i am down, when i ask u for help and what to do,
you will always be there with solutions for me. you never once told
me to go and find a way out myself and just leave me to be. you are
already part of my life.

to meng <3
meng, although u might be really mean at times. but u always affirm
me, telling me the right way to do things and now just scolding me
directly in the face. you are really a great blessing to me. and i
appreciate every little thing you have done for me.

to leow <3
spastic leow, u might be really spastic but i neva fail to feel loved
when i'm with you. maybe its the type of love you bring to me.
it never fails to warm my heart. that little bit of concern that you
show has already got my heart warmed.

to szemin <3
szemin, though i am not really very close to you whether in ge or not,
i still thank you for all the encouragement u have given me. your
convictions and how much you want to do for the kingdom of God spurs
me on. it makes me not want to give up more.

i really want to thank God for all of you
you are all blessings in my life
all of a different, special, unique footprint
imprinted in my heart. it can never be removed.

lastly i want to thank God for my shepherd YAP YING JIE <3333333
whenever i face with any problems,
she is always ready to hear me out to teach me what is right from wrong
to help me to grow. to help me be a better person.
she is always there with encouragements for me.

ultimately, I LOVE YOU ALL!
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE ENCOURAGEMENTS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME
i am always touched by your little encouragements
whether a sentence or two. i still warms my heart

God has given me these blessings in my life.
and i must appreciate them and not put them down.

Lord and me

2008-07-22T08:27:00.000-07:00

i just visited the web that jade told me to

and it dawned on me then that after how much Jesus had done for us,
if we still continue our old ways and not do anything for the kingdom
then there is definitely no point in wanting to work for CG08
there will be no point in working towards the GC.

God spoke to me in colossians 2:1
I want you to know how much I am struggling for you and for those at Lacdicea and for all who have not met me personally
isn't it great and touching to know that our God is actually struggling for us?
i mean like, God is so much greater and stronger than us
and yet He is suffering for us.
He is even suffering for the non-believers.
but what are we doing with our lifes now?
spending time playing getting yourself into bgr?
God did so much for us.
is this how we repay Him? is this how we thank Him?

whyy do people just don't understand?
what are they doing with their lifes?
God, they really need you.

God i want to hold, cling on you, never let you go. 我要牵你爱你不让你走

regrets

2008-07-19T22:35:00.000-07:00

once again, i was forced to do the 3 most hated things
ah. God, i need more anointing,
i feel lousy.. i cannot live for anymore regrets.
no way. no more regrets.
more like, i CANNOT afford anymore regrets
as i lead the girls, God, anoint me.
i dun seem to be of any help for your kingdom at all
as i see the rest going all out for chung cheng,
i look back at myself and my grp.
God, how? what should i do? we are not putting in enough effort
God, i tried, i really tried.
God i dun want anymore regrets.

i want to do so much more for your kingdom.

at least, i have to.
how can i afford to see others moving on so much with you?
yet chung cheng remains stagnant.
i just sit on the fence?! no way!

i'm losing my friends, my cliques are pulling away.
ppl watch me, stare at me.
what am i? in their eyes, i am just another christian
a christian in fact that will give up everything for the kingdom of God

to them, i am crazy.
to them, i am mad.
to them, i am silly.
to them, i am stupid.
to them, i am not worth being friends with.
to them, i am weak.

but to God, i am strong.
i am not stupid, crazy, mad, silly.
beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
only the one to which had made me, moulded me, planned out my life
i am beautiful.

God, when i put your kingdom first,
i know you will support me all the way.
they might want to draw away from me,
ignore me, call me names, talk behind my back,
but i know, that you will help me through.

when God is with me, no one is against me!

i finally understand this.

but there is one more thing that i don't understand.
why do the "christians", don't act like christians?
they gossip behind others back
they talk bad about teachers
they laugh at others
they don't love
they don't share

God, i don't want to become like them.
outward christians w/o a close relationship with you.
God, help me change.
help me to love more.
help me to share my favourite things.
help me to not listen to gossips or even be part of them.
help me to not laugh at others.
help me to not talk bad about teachers.

God, all these i want to turn away from.

God, i dont want to me like them.
at least, how can i afford to?

deut.28 & lev.26

2008-07-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

jacq left for brisbane for missionary camp today.
wow, i hope to be able to go for theses camps as i mature in my sprirtual walk with God.
in any case, i read deut.28 and lev.26 that bern had told us
which i thought is really useful to many especially those pioneering their schools.

deut.28. the main topics were:
-blessings for obedience
-curses for disobedience

1. if we follow God and obey all the commands He has given us, He will set us high above everything in all the nations. Blessings from God will definitely come upon us, slowly after we have obeyed Him. if we follow Him, He will make us the head and never the tail. And if we pay attention to the commands He has given us today, we will be at the top, never at the bottom.
never should we turn away from Him and follow, serve other gods.

2. curses will come upon you and overtake you if you do not follow God's commands. we will be cursed wherever we go whether in or out. we will not be even worth an alien. the alien rises higher and higher, but we will just sink lower and lower. never will we get to be the head. always the tail we will be. in fact, we will get into such a terrible state that even if we offer ourselves to someone as slaves for free, they do not even want us.

which want of the above would you rather have. or rather, would you rather be.

lev.26.the main topics were:
-reward for obedience
-punishment for disobedience

1. God will grant us peace throughtout the land, we don't have to be afraid of beasts and enemies. just as God had spoke to the five of us in the chung cheng pioneering team. Five of you will chase a hundred, and a hundred of you will chase ten thousand, and your enemies will fall by the sword before you. (v8) God seemed to be telling us not to be afraid as He will always be there to back us up.

2. we will be wasted in the land, scattered among nations to be people that are of no use and no help. they will be fearful of everything without God's comfort, peace, anoiting. they are practically of no use. to put it crudely, rubbish. one that is of no signifiacance at all that many throws about. just like a flimsy leaf that trembles in the presence of the cold wind.

once again, which want would you rather have?

w/o pencil case

2008-07-07T07:49:00.001-07:00

i feel so deprived w/o my pencil case
in any case, quite upset over a few matters by things are ok
just had co committee outing this morning
den shirlyn's birthday party
den rushed down to tp for "ciruit" class

argh.. in any case, HAPPY BIRTHDAY P.!
yeahh i really wish you all the best in whatever you do.
jiayou girl! dun ever give up!

yeahh just gonna blog about what i learnt today
as in through QT
quiet time with God: 2 cor. 2, 2 cor. 3, 2 cor. 4
in 2. cor 2, i leant that distressing is not about feeling better because of other. ultimately, it all depends on you. becuase God believes that we should not depend on all these but on God. He just want to let us, all His children know that He loves us more than anything else. (v4)
in 2 cor. 3, i learnt that we must always be a ministry that brings rigtheousness. a ministry that condemns man is glorious. if this itself is glorious, then what if we bring righteousness? how much more glorious would it be? we are all reflectors of God's glory. the spirit of the Lord which is freedom helps us to reflect it. bringing about glory.
in 2 cor. 4, i learnt that we my be crushed or smashed in every way and every side but we wil never give up in despair or detroyed. God gave us a light to be able to see, watch our route carefully. we should never waste time. we can appear to waste a lot of time outwardly, but you might be different inwardly. most importantly, God knows our heart and effort in whatever we do. we just have to have lotss and lotss of faith and go to God with not a heart of regret but a heart of thanks-giving.

BECAUSE GOD IS GREAT!

MISHA PAULE TAN

2008-07-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

what a great day today!
i had to sign up for water baptism today so i rushed the name out
really wanna thank God for yingjie, fiona leow and jacq for helping me in the finding of names
thank yingjie for giving me a LONG list of names for peace
thank ah leow for pei-ing me as we think of baptism names tgt (fiona caris leow)
thank jacq for giving me another list last minute

ah. chose paule!
MISHA PAULE TAN!
hahas sounds nice.
paule is actually the girl name for paul
paul was really a respectable character in the bible
anyway.. ah.. pray tt lc will get baptised with me
pray tt sharmaine will hurry think of her baptism name

i feel so deprived w/o my pencil case
i cannot write things i learn from bible down alr so i decided to blog about it

quiet time with God: 1 cor. 15, 1 cor. 16, 2 cor. 1
in 1 cor. 15, i learnt that when we preach about the gospel, we must do it with faith and conviction. if we claim that there is no resurrection it means tt Jesus did not resurrect at all and we are false witnesses of God. also, we should never mix with bad company and really come back to our senses. STOP sinning cause it will just pull me away from God. and as we walk with God everyday of our lifes, we realise that we are changing. but it is barely noticable, only the people around us can see. (v51-54)
in 1 cor. 16, i learnt that when we do something for God, we are sure to face opposition. because the great door is opened to us. we must always be on our guard, stand strong, stand firm in faith. be man of courage, be strong. doing everything in love of God. (v13-14)
in 2 cor. 1, i learnt that in all times if troubles, we should never be afraid because God is with us. but when we are comforted by our compassionate God, we will use the comfort He used to comfort us to comfort someone else. (v3-4) when we face problems, pressure in life, we feel that it is the sentence of life. but we should always take that time to really pray to God and talk to God. cause that is the time where we are the closest to God as we know that the only person we can rely now is God. (v9) God, is a faithful God. because no matter what promises He made, it will always come true. He will never disappoint us by saying sorry or apologising but in fact faithful and does what He promises.

I LOVE GOD! I REALLY DO!

harvesters meet

2008-06-30T05:35:00.000-07:00

first, wanna apologise for not blogging for ultra super long time

oh and yeahh yeahh tt time went for harvesters meet

hahas den got memory verse quiz lor!

the setter was YAP YING JIE!

and we didnt even know... we even cheered when she went up luh

den end up it was quiz time.. aiyo

okok.. i failed the quiz! ahhhh

got punishment de lor.. those tt studied copy the verses 3 times

those tt didn't 7 times.. hmm but i did!

ahh didn't even have time to do the punishment lor

yeahh and then there was prayer sessions for the schools being pioneered

hmm ok.. pioneering leader of chung cheng.. wow!

yeah well, we had to holdd the chung cheng tee and pray

hahas! hmm okok God, i'll do my best!

we even took some pics with the pioneering sheet thing.

chungcheng jiayou!

chungcheng! members of pioneering team!

yeahh took pics with my sheep, shepherd and grand-shepherd!

sheep (yuli) and i!!

shepherd (yingjie) and i!!

shepherd (yingjie) and grand-sherpherd (jacQ)!!

hehes realised something special about the above pics?
hahas its like sheep and shepherd, sheep and shepherd, sheep and shepherd
we still have a full "herd portrait"!

"herd portrait" which i also found out shortest to tallest.. hmm..

yaya.. also jiayou to all schools with their pioneering!

God, i will go on till the end, a finisher of CG08!

oasis camp!

2008-06-24T05:06:00.000-07:00

hey peeps, sorry for blogging about camp soooo late.
but yeahh. i wanna thanks a few ppl for some things.

hahas. okok. i want to thank God for YingJie (shepherd) for allllwwwaaayys trying to rush us for breakfast, lunch and dinner so that we wont miss out any teachings, and shepherding almost every night was great! i want to thank God for Carinna (sm) for rushing us to bathe faster, with her stopwatch.. we can all only get to bathe for 10 mins but if not for her we will be late for almost everything le. and that she crucified me almost every night. i want to thank God for JacQ (grand-shepherd) for listening through as our caregroup share about things we have learnt, making sure that we have our hearts prepared for everything and even making us share our flaws. i want to thank God for Dennis (hairy) for planning for the whole camp. it was really fun and the sermons were great! i want to thank God for Pastor Shirley for making each sermon interestingly delicious, constantly reminding us not to stroll away from the word of God. i want to thank God for Pastor Jeff for rushing down to give us 1 sermon teaching even though he was really tired after he came back from malaysia. i want to thank God for Bern (sms) for making every time we spent with caregroup sooo interesting and still having a heart of praising and worshiping God after she fell. i want to thank God for Chrystal (sm) for taking care of caregroup after yingjie and carinna brought bern to the hospital, it was a great responsibility for her. i want to thank God for Luan Chun (sms) for being my sleeping partner even though we only slept tgt on the first night. i want to thank God for Sharmaine (sms) for going down to camp even though she only went from second day onwards. i want to thank God for YingHui (sm) for trying her best to go down for camp and even overnighting though her mum didnt allow. i want to thank God for YuLi (sheep) for all her screams and cheers.. too bad there wasnt a cheering competition or we would surely have aced tt. i want to thank God for AhTeh ( sm) for always wanting to have supper. thanks to you i put on much weight. i want to thank God for Meng for being soooooooo retarded and talking sooooo much crapp. i want to hank God for SpasticMonkey for being sooo spastic wif all her spastic expressions and looks.

yeahh that about all! did i like miss out anyone... hmm...
ohh ya i miss out God!
GOD I THANK YOU FOR YOU FOR MAKING CAMP SUCH A SUCCESSFUL EVENT!
yeahh. this goes out to God for all He had done for me.

rmb my last post when i said there was sth else,
actually God did a follow-up to the vision He gave me.
He made me the pioneering leader for the chung cheng ppl in CG08.
yeahh. wow.. like God trusts me lorh.. i feel soo happy
God trusts me...
i know i'm loved by the king and it makes my heart,
wanna sing....!

will upload the pics soon!

God believes in me

2008-06-20T17:45:00.000-07:00

yay! i am a shepherd!
actually i got to know this on monday 16/06/08
but now i can finally scream it out to the whole world!
I AM A SHEPHERD AND YULI IS MY SHEEP! :D
GOD TRUSTS ME AND WANTS TO PUT ME TO USE!

also, God gave me a vision during camp, a pictorial one.
first i saw a bridge, there was one person, then 3,
the number kept increasing and increasing till the whole bridge was full!
God was trying to tell me that He trusts me.
He believes that i can bring so many more people to be saved.

there is actually still another BIG surprise that God gave me.
but the time is not yet ripe to shout it out to the whole world.
expect more!!!

God i thank you for trusting in me and giving me such a wonderful sheep, YuLi
i will really do my best to help her grow so much more
and i know that you will always be there for me if i face any difficulties
i also thank you for believing in me,
i really want to see CG08 and the great commission coming to past
through the vision i know that you believe in me
but God, it is never enough. use me more
use me so much so much more.
give me clean hands and pure heart so that i can be a clean vessel to spread the gospel
once again, i thank you for everything, in Jesus name i pray, AMEN!

quiz again

2008-06-13T09:15:00.000-07:00

ah, got tagged by chrystal teo!

1)When will the sun not shine and when will the world end? a world w/o God

2)What do you want most now? i want to p and w more! and i want to have more more more church camps!

3)Do you believe in your best friends? OBVIOUS! they are my best friends! but i believe in my sisters and brothers more. (:

4)Do you hate your friends sometimes? no i might just get a little disappointed with them. but they are still my friends.

5)When do you wish to die?As long as my mission in life is completed and thee great comission is fulfilled.

6)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain? yea i have seen them around somewhere.

7)What impossible things you would wish to do?dunno..nothing is impossible with God!

8) Do you believe in eternity love? yeahh! i do! God loves me for eternity by givng up His son for me. yay i will love Him and my spiritual family eternally.

9)Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide? no. i am very nice de.

10)What feeling do you love the most? seeing people be saved and being touched by God.

11)What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? to be a christian! and godly! and that he knows that we are working tgt to serve God better. not to complete each other.

12)What feeling do you hate the most? watching my family members turning their backs against one another. seeing people back slide.

13)Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? yeahhs God gave them to me for a purpose.

14)Is there anything that you're looking forward to in the next few weeks? yea! look forward to every sermon, p&w and cg!

15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life? GOD! hahas..family, friends, church

16)Who do you hope to be always there for you? God, i dun have to hope. He will definatelty be there. (:

17)Do you find life meaningless? no! God will give me visions! He slowly reveal to me what is my purpose in life!

18)Who do you love the most? GOD! my spiritual and biological family.

19)What's your latest injury? a cut?

20)Who did i chat with just now? CHRYSTAL TEO! 33mins and 41 secs! cool!

21) How retarded can you get? erm.. since when am i retarded? tt one you have to ask ah leow, meng, yj and jacq.. they are the retarded ones.. hehe!

22)Who do you think are your most spastic friends? AH LEOW! MENG! JACQ! YJ!

Instructions:Remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question then tag 8 people in your list,list them out in your post,notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged.Whoever who does this tag will have a blessing from all.here it goes..add this question in:

23)HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE CHRYSTAL?(she herself add de..) LOTSS! she is the greatest sheep mate anyone could ask for!

8 people:
yingjie
jade
felicia
chrystal winata
venessa
yuli
yinghui
bern

emo

2008-06-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

~~God, why does she have to be like that?~~
~~why God? i dont like her two-sidedness.~~
~~she appears so friendly and happy in front of her.~~
~~why like that God?~~
~~why? i feel so helpless.~~
~~she is ** ******** and yet i cant do anything to help her.~~
~~i really want to help her.~~
~~but i believe that God will make a way.~~
~~yes, He will. i love Him.~~
~~God i dun want to feel helpless.~~
~~i want to be able to help her.~~

this goes out to all my spiritual family members.
i love you guysss.
thank you Chrystal for comforting me.
i really thank God for you.
btw, i am not emo when i wrote this.
so dun worry, cause pastor Shirley say cannot be emo.

i can never

2008-06-08T01:25:00.000-07:00
once again, as i stepped into nexus,
my heart was filled with joy and thanksgiving.
as i watch my brothers and sisters,
enjoying the company of one another,
God with all of us, watching down at His children.
my heart surged with joy seeing everyone as they settled into their seats,
before getting up for another moment of praise and worship.

i got up, slowly making my way towards the front.
as usual, there would always be someone up there on stage,
sharing the words God had spoken to them.
a smile drifted on my face when music starting blarring by my ears.
God's children, all into the mood of praising him.
grinning from ear to ear, dancing like never before.
excitement filled my heart as i joined them,
paraising God like never before.
thanking Him for everything He had done for me that week.
my feet danced to the beat of the music,
it seemed to have taken over my whole self.
my hands clapped vociferociously,
clapping for God all He has done.
music slowed down as peace drew into our presence.
i could feel God from whatever angle i was in.
my spirit calmed down for another time of worship.
God, i can never worship you enough... never ever.
as i bedan singing praises of God, worshipping Him.
i could really feel His presence lingering around me.
and at that point of time i wanted to go on my knees,
God my Lord, i can never stop praising you.

i settled back to my seat with the others.
holy communion,
as i remembered how God had moved me in my life.
God is so wonderful, so glorious.
i took the bread and cup in rememberance of God.

at the end of everything,
it is God i can never worship enough.
it is God i can never sing enough praise.
it is God i can never stop thanking.

I love GOD! (:

quiz

2008-06-05T19:38:00.000-07:00
Ah, Got tagged by felicia!

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B. Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What do you think an ideal best friend should be like? someone who i can confine in who are able to keep my secrets. (:

2. If you have a dream come true, what would it be? to see strong and biblical people planting strong and biblical churches in singapore and all over the world! :D

3. Who's life would you want to takeaway most? no one! i love everyone!

4. What would you do with a billion dollars? tithe 10% of it. give my mum 50%. my bro 10%. another 10% to charity. 10% to my grandmother. and treat my whole caregroup a 10 course meal! :D

5. Do you like this quiz? its do-able...

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? Being loved by someone.

7. Can you whistle? yeahhs!

8. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy? yea! seeing people get to know God!

9. Do you believe in ghosts? not exactly... souls will either go to heaven or hell..

10. If the person you like secretly is already attached, what would you do? pretend it neva happened and forget the whole idea about being with him.

11. Would you like to confess to someone you love by yourself, or through your friends? through my friends! hey, i'm a shy girl!

12. Who are currently the most important people to you? biological family, spritual family!

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? (felicia-cow) very spastic!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor? Married but poor. whats the point of being rich when you have no one to share it with??

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up? *stand up and walk to the toilet in a daze..*

16. What does your favourite kind of shampoo smells like? apple scented! hehes.. although i havent found any apple scented shampoo just yet.. still in search! help me keep a look out! (:

17. How would you rate the perfection of you life now? 9/10 thank God for ABIT of problems that can make me grow stronger! (:

18. What would you most like to have for your birthday present? (self-formulated qns) aiyo.. why ask this kind of question? i shy leh... can come to me for clue.. (: hehe!

Tag the next 10 people.
1. ah bern
2. luan chun
3. chrystal teo
4. yu li
5. ying jie
6. jacq
7. ying hui
8. ah leow (monkey)
9. queen esther
10. jade

fasting and praying

2008-05-29T22:32:00.000-07:00
yo ppl, i am currently fasting from sweets and chocs.
wa.. my first time fasting leh!
keeping it in prayers.
but sweets very addictive.. chocs too
everyime i see some1 eating, i get tempted
i mean, who can resist sweets and chocs?
definately NOT me!
so i am praying to be able to prevent myself from eating those devils till camp
well, wad can i say.. jiayou misha! dun give up!
hahas ok dun blog le.
if you wann keep me in prayers den can pray tt i dun get tempted
and let satan get in control of me!

1.41
friday
30 may 2008

MY SHEPHERD

2008-05-16T05:40:00.000-07:00
since i was requested by my shepherd to blog.. well..
so i blog lor... hahas

as usual, ying jie asked me what dance i learn.. hehe
and as usual, i told her cha cha!
why ppl dun believe tt i learn cha cha ar??
haiix.. i dunno wad to say liao..
so she made me read a verse from the bible la!
Obey your leaders and submit to theis authority. They keep watch over you as men who must give an account. Obey them so that their work will be a joy, not a burden, for that will be of no advantage to you. hebrews 13: 17
so i act blur.... i mean act "NATURAL"
yaya.

then my VERY NICE shepherd taught me the bridge diagram.
i was supposed to be the "non-believer" so she was the one telling me about God la
obviously being a VERY NICE sheep, i made things difficult for her, hehe

after tt, she acted like the "non-believer"
tt was when we created the A*, B3 and B4, C5 C6 gonna fail to D7 E8 E9 thing
on the "get to know God better" report book! hahas
yaya den ying jie say i VERY HOT! woohoo!
as in SIZZLING HOT! hahas! soooooooooo hot! :)

ok lastly i wanna end this wif a prayer for her.

Heavenly Father, I wanna thank you for my shepherd, Ying Jie.
She has been a VERY NICE shepherd indeed.
I thank you for her that we can have shepherding together.
I also wanna pray for her tt she
will get to know you better, God.
And tt end of the year,
her get to know you better report book
will have nothing but A*s!
I pray tt you will guide her through in whatever she does,
And she will continue to grow in you God.
Also, that she will have more time on her hands.
I can tell tt she is really busy these few days,
Rushing for shepherding and caregroup.
Lord, I really thank you soooo much for her.
In Jesus name I pray, AMEN!
hahas! SHEPHERD JIA YOU!

9:08
16 may 2008
Friday

mediacorp came today!!

2008-05-04T05:18:00.000-07:00
omgosh! mediacorp came over to my place today to film for the new show, 球爱大战!
Jesseca Liu and Joanne Peh came over!

there were two scenes for them to take
first scene was Jesseca Liu having to carry a baby
and finding out some terrible news.
wow her acting was good, the expression and all.. :)
she called me 小妹妹 and was like asking me,
"小妹妹可以借用你的厕所一下吗?"
so i showed her to the washroom.
because we always had a string tied to the knob,
she could not exactly close the door, oops
i had to untie it for her larhs..
i got her signature, why do artises always have to sign in chinese?
anyway she wrote keep smiling there hahas.

they then went for lunch and took another scene at the carpark beside our house
we could somewhat view it from our angle,
she was running with a woman who seemed to be Joanne Peh.
She pulled her along as the ran from a supposedly bad guy i think.
then there was this part where it seemed like Jesseca was jumping off the the carpark
yaya seem quite real though the way they put it.

in the after noon at about 3.30 or so,
the artises came up my house for another scene.
this time it was Joanne hahas.
she was as tall as Jesseca and both were really slim!
Joanne was really friendly, she greeted us with a "hello" when she stepped in
she was really busy doing her hair, and touching up on her make-up.
the scene was supposed to be the baby's 1 month old party
Joanne really liked carrying the baby and even said she wanted one of her own
so they said "Joanne 想孩子想疯了" hahas
she was really open and kept laughing at the director's funny remarks.
then i thought that was the end of the whole filming so rushed to get her autograph
so did my bro and she wrote really nice remarks,
what she wrote for me was,

Dear Misha,

Be grateful for what you've got

and dare to dream. May you find

inspiration in all you do and

stay happy always!

with love,

Joanne

and she signed off with a signature!
so inpirational rite? i was really touched when i read that.
But then they were rushing her, so i thought she had to leave as they were packing their stuff.
again i rushed to get a pic with her
but she ensured me by letting me know there was still another scene
hahas the other scene was supposed to be a scene of her and some not famous guy
they have some conversation. ya.
he was not really good, he even like to 耍大牌 ( i find)
but the other artises seemed to be able to get along with him quite well.
anyway, he was unprofessional la, he got me to help him rehearse his speech with Joanne
so that meant that i had to read Joanne's lines
he couldn't remember ALL his lines.
unlike Joanne, she didn't even have to look at the 剧本 la!
anyways i got a pic with her in the end!
i also wished her a happy belated birthday as her 25 birthday was on the 25 of April.
yaya she just thanked me lor.

oh while she was rehearsing, she looked through my baby trophies,
when she went into my room to wait for the baby,
i supposed she saw my baby pics
as i heard her asking some of the assistants
who the trophies belonged too when i walked into the room
haha then the assistants told her to ask my mum
who happened to walk in to switch on the air-conditioner for them.
she thanked my mum with a smile. :D
hahas ya, when she had to walk away from some scenes,
she had a chance to talk to my mum while waiting for her turn
my mum very funny leh, go and tell her that she is very pretty,
she just smile and said thanks
my mum even told her she enjoyed watching 谜图 her recent show la
again she said thank you
my mum knew that i wanted to be an actress so she asked her if acting was fun
she claimed that it was really fun but a little tiring thats all.
Joanne really liked eating so when they asked her if she wanted to eat,
she said yes and added "我最爱吃了!" hahas

ok when the day ended, i got really upset cause i couldn't find Jesseca's signature,
but thank God i found it! i was really praying to him that i will find it la!
i think thats all lor.. will upload pictures soon!
i think overall, i really want to thank God for this day he have given me
He knew i had difficulties with my studies and was feeling really upset about it
He sprang me with this surprise. THANK GOD!

pictures!!
Jesseca trying to manage the baby

the 1st scene

Jesseca, Mama and I

Jesseca and my bro, can tell diff in height

the 1st month party scene

Joanne helping us to sign autograph 1

Joanne helping us sign autograph 2

Joanne and I

Joanne and my bro. she said he was muscular!
and that he should play basketball or water polo!

Joanne packing her stuff getting ready to leave

Joanne and Mama

04/05/2008
sunday

BAZAAR BY THE LAKE

2008-04-13T17:16:00.000-07:00
OMG!! bazaar by the lake turned out soo well!!
our food stall sold 150 packets of chicken rice in 2 hrs!!
we didnt have enough for the rest of the bazaar,
so we had to put up this sign that says
TEMPORARILY SOLD OUT PLEASE COME BACK LATER
hahas so many ppl tt came had no choice but 2 come back later
some even paid and didnt get their chicken rice
i didnt even get to try it myself! ! :(
i even told Wang LaoShi tt having no customers was better than having customers!

the pick up marbles stall turn out GREAT too!
many customers were flooding in!! :D
i feel so bad, hardly helped out in the games stall,
only at the end then i did, but still,
BETTER THAN NOTHING RITE?!

oh and Mr Chia went on the dunk machine!!
hahas soo cool rite!! and Mr Chua hit it twice
but Mr Chia didnt fall in la!!
in the end the whole maching spoiled!! hahas! :D

but tt is ot the fun part yet!! guess wad Cheng Xi came 2 my sch!
he is actually from cchms wan la so they got him back 4 the bazaar.
i took many pic with him!! so happy la!!
but the school cheat money wan lor
first they say take photo need 2 pay $10
den after tt say dun need pay!! my frens n i were quite upset la
but it is worth it canns?!
he is soo nice and friendly la!
heehee so glad i got his msn! still in search for his hp no.
hahas jkjk la i nt so ass hole la!

tada there!!
Mr Chia again!
this didnt turn out very good cause this wasnt scanned in
Cheng Xi and i yay!! :D
Thats all folks!! hahas dun be jealous kays!?

spop hurray

2008-03-30T01:32:00.000-07:00
i was asked by my Ling to blog about this.
well den, ok tt day started off fine, lol
Venessa came over so we can leave for the show together.

ok firstly, we went to eat la.
but it was getting extremely late
and every second tt ticked on the clock
meant the every beat of my heart
it was palpitating as i did not like the feeling of keeping others waiting
especially my Ling.
Venessa and I left immediately after we finished our meal

after many prayers to God,
we arrived there on time!!
Thank God!!
when we reached there,
both of us gave our lao gongs a call
they said they were at meeting place
where in the world is meeting place??
and den i saw a sign which pointed to the meeting place
there they were hahas!!

even so we went into the stadium late
who do we have to thank??
my ahma(fiona) and mother(yingjie) ... haiix
must be they too old alr walk too slow
too bad lor all of us have to wait outside for them

anyway, i think i hardly concentrated throughout the show la
we were like going in and out of the stadium to get stuff
first Ling was hungry and den the rest were thirsty
but i think we had more fun with each others company den the show lor
i enjoyed tt day!!

oh n i'm inviting ppl to my daughter and future son-in-law's wedding
on this come thursday 3 april at the esplanade!! :)
all welcomed!! but dun forget to bring yr ang bow along!!

Good Friday

2008-03-20T05:08:00.000-07:00
many think tt good friday
is a day for celebration
just because it is a public holiday
but they are all WRONG!!
it's sooooooooo definately
NOT a day for celebration!!

It's quite a sad day actually.
is was the day in which Jesus was crucified.
and ppl all around the world who do not noe of this,
goes arond celebrating over the occasion.
it's devastating to know tt.

I am sure many of you do not noe the diff
between Easter, Good Friday and Christmas.
well actually, Easter has more
significance den Christmas.
Easter is the day of Jesus' resurrection.
Christmas is the day where Christ was born.
and last but nt least, Good Friday.
The day where Jesus was crucified.

God sent his only son down to die for our sins.
And on the day where he dies,
ppl around the world are rejoicing for the a day off.
It is very hurtful if they
dun understand the real meaning.

anyways, i just want to ask
if anyone will be free this saturday,
Y-hope is having Easter service.
fill free to contact me if u can make it for the service!

getting married?!

2008-03-18T04:19:00.000-07:00
hahas okok i noe this sounds werid haha lol
i got lao gong leh!!
actually its just Chrystal Winata la!! hahas!!
we call each other....
LING!!
frankly speaking, tt word sends shivers up my spine,
so ewwwwww...
mushy!!

guess wad!?
ok this sounds crazy but we have a daughter!!
haha Venessa?!
and a future son-in-law?!
Leck Qi??
our witness in marriage/neighbour??
KahBing?
hahas Felicia didn't wanna join in the fun haiix.

and we even have a house!!
Chung Cheng la!! hahas
so it belongs to us!! heehee
we are now planning our daughter's marriage
and tt we are saving money to get a car..!

hahas, Ling if u are reading this post now,
i just wanna tell u tt i miss u and love u lotss!! hahas
muacks!! heehee!! :)

church stuff

2008-03-09T18:28:00.000-07:00
a piece of good news for everyone!!
8 march 08 was my spiritual birthday!! yay!!
i feel quite retarded la but ya yay!!
it was the frist time i went to y-hope and i felt so welcomed!!
the ppl there are so nice but sadly many were going to leave...
anyway, i have upload some funny pics we have taken together!! :)

us!!! still got more ppl la!!

spastic faces of ours!! :)

hahas puffer fishes!!

huh?? caught on the camera!!

Bern didn't even noe she was on camera la!!

East B1!!

CCHMS ppl!

we were supposed to be caught jumping.
too bad MY camera too slow.

Ying Jie and her funny smile!!

hahas her again!!

our tickets!! cool rite?
actually its our class tickets la.

wow all the tickets leh!!

close up pic of Joy hahas!!

finally a qi gei face from Miss Singa!!
after we took too many of her close up pics!

喜

怒

哀

乐

Luan Chun and Joy!!
L!!
tada the end!! :)

THE LEAP YEARS!!

2008-03-06T00:32:00.000-08:00

ohoh did i mention, i just catched the leaps years on the first of march?!
hey actually i wanted to catch it on the 29 feb but sad sia
because it is called the leap years, and tt day is a leap day,
all the tickets were sold out before i knew it.
anyways i still managed to catch it one day after rite??

the storyline is great and is acted by,
Wong Li Lin as Li Ann
Ananda Everingham aas Jeremy
Qi Yu Wu as KS
Joan Chen as the old Li Ann

a saint once decreed,
that a man must agree,
to a woman' proposal today.
give me a sign,
whether to me me at eight,
at the same place you sit,
and fulfill the tradition of february 29.

It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.
-William Shakesphere
Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous.
-Albert Einstein
A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it.
-Jean De La Fantain
In three words, i can sum up everything I've learnt about life: It goes on
-Robert Frost
If you are not too long, I will wait for you all my life.
-Oscar Wilde

We make a promise...
We meet every february 29,
same time, same place.......

A leap year romance
Over four leap years
Will he show?
Will she wait?
This is february 29
Take a leap of faith

Ok so here are some pics for you.

Eh hard to find canns??
can find these two alr very good alr.
actually i found i online la but dunno y cannot copy and paste.
the show i really great must watch kays??

apple-gerl
5.32pm

happy birthday

2008-03-06T00:27:00.000-08:00
hey venessa sorry i didnt post to wish you a vey happy birthday!!
and ppl who didnt noe how we spent venessa's birthda,
well we went to felicia's house to vist her lars..
yaya i now=e wad you are thinking.
yes she fractured the tiny toe, in thee end still must go operation.
ke lian the cai yu ting... :(
anyways we still had a great time spending birthday wif one of my besties!! :)

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-09T22:57:00.000-08:00
My bro is getting really upset wif me for taking up his comp time.
so i am gonna make this a quick wan.
I would just like to wish everyone out there a HAPPY NEW YEAR
and a happy year ahead!! :D

OH the christmas song

2008-02-09T22:16:00.001-08:00
hey peeps i soooo forgot about the christmas song we created in HaNoi.
Ya so now i am here to"sing" it to you hahas
We sang it in the restaurant,
I think our singing too nice so they gave us free hats!! :)

The tweleve days of christmas
On the first day of christmas my true love gave to me,
a packet of Char Kuey Tiao Mee (Aunt Chin)

On the second day of christmas my true love gave to me,
2 pregnant Babies, (Aunt Pauline)
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the third day of christmas my true love gave to me,
3 goreng pisangs, (Dexter)
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the fourth day of christmas my true love gave to me,
4 smoked salmon, (Uncle Tommy)
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the fifth day of christms my true love gave to me,
5 packs of condoms, (Mabeline) idea from Uncle Joo
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the sixth day of christmas my true love gave to me,
6 empty pockets, (Uncle Clarence)
5 packs of condoms,
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the seventh day of christmas my true love gave to me,
7 you char kuey, (sa gor)
6 empty pockets,
5 packs of condoms,
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the eighth day of christmas my true love gave to me,
8 storybooks, (Claudia)
7 you char kuey,
6 empty pockets,
5 packs of condoms,
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the ninth day of christmas my true love gave to me,
9 sweet kisses, (Uncle)
8 storybooks,
7 you char kuey,
6 empty pocket,
5 packs of condoms,
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the tenth day of christmas my true love gave to me,
10 I very full, (sa gor tio)
9 sweet kisses ,
8 storybooks,
7 you char kuey,
6 empty pockets,
5 packs of condoms,
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the eleventh day of christmas my true love gave to me,
11 tong kak ali, (Mum)
10 I very full,
9 sweet kisses,
8 storybooks,
7 you char kuey,
6 empty pockets,
5 packs of condoms,
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisangs,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

On the twelth day of christmas my true love gave to me,
12 pomelo, (Colin)
11 tong kak ali,
10 I very full,
9 sweet kisses,
8 storybooks,
7 you char kuey,
6 empty pockets,
5 packs of condoms,
4 smoked salmon,
3 goreng pisang,
2 pregnant babies,
and a packet of char kuey tiao mee.

Haha THE END!!
All credits to ppl we played a part in this song!!
Including me!! :D

Happy Birthday Felicia

2008-01-31T02:06:00.000-08:00
Hey Felly HAPPY BRITHDAY ar!!
so la late birthday wish hope you get wad you want!!
and hope you like your NUM bag!!
all the best to you!!

best wishes,
Misha aka apple-gerl :)

continuation of vietman trip

2008-01-23T03:39:00.000-08:00
ok den mum went wif my aunt and uncles to buy some vietnam snacks lol haha
afterwards we went to see water puppets it was quite cool!!

we went back to the hotel had dinner and we played cards games again
dexter and maybeline stayed in denise's and mine rm at night again
i was so tired tt i fell asleep after a while
maybeline was the funniest. she went back to her rm and didnt come back.
the nxt day we asked her y she didnt come back, she said she fell asleep in her own rm
haha damn funny canns i was like laughing!!

ok today is our last day in HaNoi sad rite?? i noe haha
we went down for breakfast as usual den made our way to the airport lol
ok it was sad we parted lol
tts all folks bb!!

vietnam trip

2007-12-20T19:14:00.000-08:00
Vietnam wasn't exactly interesing la!!
Damn disappointed tt i can't go o korea in the end..
Ok now i shall just talk about my somewhat interesting trip to vietnam.

On the first day, we had to reach the airport at like 2pm
there were in total like 19 of us all together as a family
and we were followed by another couple in the group makin git vbe about 21 of us
nt including the tour leader, Mayeline
tt was like in the afternoon but it was ok
den we went for some snacks at delifrance and toast box.
LOL!!

Afterwards my younger cousins and i had a played a lame game of club penguin
haha
we sled raced lol before we boarded the plane at 4 plus

ok so now we're on the plane
a not so high class plane which oso provides airplane food
which tasted much better den SQ food
ok we were under vietnam airlines...

When we arrived at vietnam it wasn't as cold as we expected
thus our jackets didn't seem to come in handy.
it was about 8 in singapore time as vietnam was 1 hour after singapore
which oso meant tt it was about 7 in vietnam at tt time.
we had this buffet dinner

guess wad we can pick our own meat add vegetables and season the raw meat
to our own liking den we pass the bowl of meat and vegetables to the chef
and he will be able to cook it for us!!
he handled the cooking with much style!
Oh and there was this great dish that they had there too.
It was called vietnamese Pho.
It tasted great!! just like soup with noodles just tt it was better.
We had cakes and desert fruits after tt
We had ice cream too!!
everyone went after the pandan flavour
I guess coconut was nxt to it.
the want where many disliked was tropical punch
when i wanted a scoop of ice cream, all tt was left was tropical punch
so i tried it
it totally tasted like bubble gum
indeed it wasn't very nice

After tt we returned to the hotel.
It was called hotel.. sunway i think actually i am nt very sure
anyway i spent the first night wif mum and bro in the hotel room la!!
we were damn tired tt day thus we slept damn freaking early!!

The next day at HaNoi ok i dun really rmb wad happened.
we went down for breakfast n we were like gonna change hotel
mum didnt know
so we hurried, rushed back to the hotel to pack our stuff.
den got to the coach and got to another part of HaNoi.
we were like damn bored on the coach canns??
so we started playing cards luckly dex brought cards lor
if nt confirm damn sian wan cause it was like 2 to 3 hrs there.

anyways we alighted at this place for a toilet break where we saw handmade items being made
lol tts for sure la
denise and i went to the washroom
n there were like many flies in there so gross rite??

after a while, the coach left and this time,
we headed straight for the other par of HaNoi.
lols

we alighted the bus and den got on this boat.
we had lunch on it cool rite??
we went upstairs and enjoyed the cool breeze haha

we alighted the boat for a while n went into this cave!
it was damn nice canns??
they had luminuous lights in it making the cave look so beautiful.
if you look carefully, u can even see the shapes made by the rocks.
many of them looked like jellyfishes!
they were pretty though.
after tt, we went back to the boat.
ok we had luch den stopped by this kelong tt sold fishes
hey there were these prawns tt looked like crayfish known as king prawn.
cool rite!?

anyways after lunch, we went to the hotel i think den we went for dinner
den at night we went to night market to buy stuff!
kay we got the communist tee and den went back to the hotel
we went to uncle tommy's room haha played card games again.
oh ya denise and i had a room to ourselves cool rite??
aunt chin and aunt pauline wanted the children to turn in early so we had to go back 2 e hotel rm
lol little did denise and i expect tt dexter and mabeline would come knocking at the door
to play cards wif us haha!! until damn late lor so we were damn tired.

the nxt morning i was awaken by the irritating noises of denise
haiix.. cant sleep alr
we took a bath, packed our stuff and went for breakfast downstairs.
the breakfast was ok den we set off back the e other part of HaNoi haha

oh we went for lunch den
stopped by to buy fruits den
went to the temple lol we saw many stuff
actually nt alot la
but they sell things there too
so i got this coin tt my bro wanted for him.
lol haha
k den we went to do my favourite thing.
SHOPPING!! haha!!
lol fun but the stuff there oso very ex like in singapore
got ome even more ex den singapore
and i found out something from them tt they like to count things in us dollars!! so stoopid rite??
stop here first continue on nxt post

Rest In Peace Aunt Wendy

2007-11-13T04:05:00.000-08:00
One piece of bad news i have for all
my Aunt Wendy passed away on the 2nd of november 2007.
She passed away due to Lukemia (blood cancer).
Sadness overwhelms us on that fateful day.
She passed away in SGH at 12.30am.

We held the wake downstairs or house for 4 days
before we left for the mandi crematorium area on monday
5th of november 2007..

During the wake, all of us had to perform
on 2 of the days for my aunt the last time.

On monday we went to the crematorium
room 3, den went to the viewing hall 3.
As a machine pushed the coffin into the furnace.
everyone cried out for my Aunt's name

I would just like to let my Aunt know
Rest In Peace Aunty Wendy
We will always remember you
and you will always be in our hearts.

Went to bowl!

2007-10-06T07:09:00.000-07:00
ytr i like sooo went to bowl for FREE! :)
cool isn't it?!
Nicole's parents sooo sponsered for the whole thing!
I think they are the owner of the bowling company
like they must be CAO rich lors!!!
but ppl like them live in semi-detached house!
totally UNDERSTANDABLE!

my score for the first round so totally sucked larx!
Yan Hong got like 112 or sth around there
my was like below 100 haiix lan bei bei!!
Chrisina did pretty well too!
Well at least better than I do tts for sure!
Yan Hong damn smart as there was the right side of the bumper up
she smart enough to roll the ball from the left in the end she got a multiple skrikes!

Christina brought like a whole box of Ferro Rocher Choclates to share wif us larx!
I felt realy lousy throughout the game!!
In the last game, there was some technical difficulties and we had to switch lane
the lane did not have one side of the bumper up so poor Yan kept gettin' her ball into the long gang!
I did ok in the lastt round larx
Christina as usual...u noe the typical her!!

kays like enough for now!
i gtg bb!!

06/10/2007

performance at the esplanade concourse!!

2007-09-14T06:28:00.000-07:00
On the 12th and 13th 2007,
wed and thurs I had ge performance at the esplanade concourse!

Our holding area is like soooooo cool la!!
wanna see??
haha u can't nanny nanny pupu!!
no la no la ii of course got take pic la!

this is the room la
like all the stars have tt kind of room like tt!!

this is miie and the abnormal YiHui
she is DAMN ABnormal!!

Oh did I tell you tt we have to get a pass before we can get in?
The pass is equally cool!
We have to sign in showing yr ezlink
but of course wif the pass too la!!
I have a pic!

cool rite??
we have our names on it and we get to keep it as souvenirs!
at the end, we have to scan out too!!
anyway i got a stoopid pic of jullian carrying 14 files!!

silly rite?!
RETARD!!

That somewhat ended alr i gtg
bb!!

12&13/09/2007
wed and thurs

Its my birthday!!

2007-09-14T05:59:00.001-07:00
It was my birthday the other day!!
sry didn't have time to post la!!
anyway ty all th frens tt wush me hapy birthday
and those tt gave me presents!!
muacks to you!!

Guess wad kind of birthday cake I had??
haha!!
It is a HAMBURGER birthday cake haha!!
cool rite??
Grace saw it!!
Just to let you have a better pic of it,
I got it down on camera!!

WooHoo

Cool rite??
Wait!! there's more!!

My birthday cake and I!!

Me!! cuttin' the birthday cake!!
Yay!!

anyways it is really delicious!!
the cheese is actually chocolate!
and so is the lettuce!!
haha i gonna make my next post alr cya!!

02/09/07
sat

Ty Juliet for helping me to do my goeg

2007-08-30T07:09:00.001-07:00

my senior and i haha!

I just wanna thank Juliet for helping me wif me goeg haha!!
Had me progress report did not do really well failed goeg have to put in more effort ba!
I did not even study la if can get D7 still quite god leh jkjkjk!!
haiix cant rlieve a lot of ppl have close birthdate as I do.
Song yun's birthday is today la!
Give her my best wishes. Bing Hong's birthday is tmr!
I drew a shit for him claiming tt is was his birthday present but jkjk la i not so evil wan!!
Anyways, Felicia's bro is born on the same day as i did 2 September haha
pls ppl tt has read or is reading or is about to read this post of mine present me wif a wonderful birthday present haha!
I took a pakeri photo wif my senior today and ty Juliet for helping me once again i noe i very luo1 suo1,
but cant help it la i am just being grateful and i want to express my gratitude towards her!!
Actually i have a lot of hmk today wan lor
got project on the goeg NEWater thingo
and i have to write a composition and three opening and closing of the composition blah blah
ahd this report on NEWater blah blah then cant watch tele lor haiixx
but luckily i have this lovey friend named Juliet and she rocks big time lor!
Help me do my work leh my stoopid report hich caused me nights to think about lor!!
i am really disappointed in my chinese results didnt expect to do so poorly in cl but ok in el
anyway i will be going bsck to pei chun tmr
visit old frens ad teachers catch up wif our conversaton or happiness will become a history
cant talk long getting late man tmr still have to wake up early celebrate teachers day
dont forget my birthday one day after teachers day leh
still dunno wad to get for my cuzzin for his burfdae cause he is rather mature and cant afford t get sth too ex
haiix i hate it when i have to think if a present to get espicially when the party does not tell me wad he or she wants
cannot talk alr la even my aunna oso wanna sleep alr so have to go before my mum and bro comes back
they went to get my birthday cake haha i mean order blah blah
bb then

2007-08-15T02:04:00.000-07:00

here are the details!!

2007-07-18T03:58:00.000-07:00
NOW

Name of clinic: G H Chee ear nose throat & dizziness centre
Name of specialist: Dr Gerard Chee Hsien (MBBS [singapore], FRCS [Edin], FRCS [Glasg]
Fellow,Otology/Neutology [Can],Consultant, Ear Nose Throat Surgeon
Place: 290 Orchard Road #11-03 Paragon singapore 238859
E-mail: ghchee@entdizziness.com
url: www.entdizziness.com
clinic number: 65-6887 1287
fax number: 65-6887 1278
mobile number: 65-9003 3419
24hr line: 65-6535 8833

Visiting consultant
National University Hospital

Advisor Centre for Hearing Intervention
and Language Developement (child)

diagnosis and Management of Ear Disease
Cochlear Implant and Skull Base Surgery
Dizziness Evaluation and Management
Management of Paediatric ENT Conditions
Endoscopic Sinus Surgery & Allergy Management
Treatment for Snoring and Obstructive Sleep Apnoea
Head and Neck Lumps and Cancer Screening
Chronic Cough and Hoarseness

FROM 6 AUGUST 2007

Name of clinic: G Chee ear nose throat & dizziness centre
Name of specialist: Dr Gerad Chee Hsien (MBBS [singapore], FRCS [Edin], FRCS [Glasg]
Fellow,Otology/Neutology [Can],Consultant, Ear Nose Throat Surgeon
Place: 3 Mount Elizabeth #12-06 Mount Elizabeth Medical Centre singapore 228510
E-mail: gchee@gcheeent.com
url: www.gcheeent.com
clinic number: 65-6737 7227
fax number: 65-6737 2150
mobile number: 65-9003 3419
24hr line: 65-6535 8833

Visiting consultant
National University Hospital

Advisor Centre for Hearing Intervention
and Language Developement (child)

diagnosis and Management of Ear Disease
Cochlear Implant and Skull Base Surgery
Dizziness Evaluation and Management
Management of Paediatric ENT Conditions
Endoscopic Sinus Surgery & Allergy Management
Treatment for Snoring and Obstructive Sleep Apnoea
Head and Neck Lumps and Cancer Screening
Chronic Cough and Hoarseness

Had to see a SPECIALIST!!!

2007-07-18T02:11:00.000-07:00
The next day, the bone was still stuck there!!
ONLY DEEPER!!!
Mum said she would bring me to see the doctor tt night,
so i had to stay with it till night.. :(

That very night,
Mum brought me to the GP to have a look.
We went down to one of the clinics at HDB hub.
In the end, the doctor could not see the bone
and so he refered us to Tan Tock Seng hospital.
I asked mum if we can go to Thomson Medical instead.
So she checked with the doctor,
he said tt it was fine but wad for waste so much money
just having to remove a fish bone??
Mum decided to heed his advice and go to Tan Tock Seng hospital
the doctor even wrote us a reference letter.
We left for Tan Tock Seng hospital shortly after tt.

The queue there was extremely long!!!
Mum asked how long it would roughly take for us to wait.
The lady at the registery counter told us 2 to 3 hours!!!
Mum found it crazy,
so we decided to go to Thomson Medical instead.
She claimed wad for save money for such a long wait??

When we reached Thomson Medical,
we were looking for the A&E ward
so we ask a counter lady
and she told us tt there was no A&E ward for Thomsom Medical,
she told us to either go to Tan Tock Seng or Mount Elizabeth Medical Centre.
Mum told her tt we just came from Tan Tock Seng hospital,
so the lady suggested Mount Elizabeth Medical Centre.

On the way there Mum said tt we were going from a cheap place to an expensive place.
First the clinic
then Tan Tock Seng Hospital
followed by Thomson Medical Centre
wad next??
Mount Elizabeth Medical Centre which was the top hospital in Singapore???

When we reach there was saw no other patients so we were served immediately.
tt was something about paying for an expensive place
as Mum said tt the medical fees would definately be above $300!!

The medic first took my blood pressure
lucky thing it was normal.
Then they had to let the GP in tt hospital check me first.
There was no bone visible there cause it was too deep down.
He had to call in the specialist.
The specialist just went home to rest but had to come down because of me.

I had to take an X-ray before the doctor comes to check where the bone was.
But it might not be visible by ther X-ray machine told one of the medics
The X-ray doctor help me do my X-ray and apprently nth could be seen.
then the speciaist came hew looked so much like a male actor
who usually acts on channel 5.

Anyway he was a really nice doctor his name is called, Dr Chee
he brought us to his clinic at Paragon,
his clinic was really nice and big
the moment you get in you will see the counter and a fish tank
he oso has a classy toilet in his clinic at the right hand corner
much classyer then at home
on the left hand side, there is a sofa with wooden frame
right in front of it is a Sharp Aqous (i think it is spelled like tt)
then there is a small play area for children.
Then there is the door to Dr Chee's room.

He said he had to numb my throat
so tt he will be able to place a scope through my nose
then he will be able to find the bone to see if it is still there.
I was very afraid at first but he calmed me down
by claiming tt it is natural for someone to be afraid and scared
as we do not know wad he will be going to happen to us
tt made me feel quite at home.
He had to let the medicine take effect first
as he had sprayed some kind of medicine into my nostrils.
He then switched on the television or me to calm myself for a moment.
I was watching Switched on the tele.

When i was ready,
we went into the room and got ready to place the scope
through my nose all the way down my throat!!
He did it in a calm manner,
Guess wad!?
It did not hurt at all!!
He was upset to find the bone still in there.
He had to remove it if not there would be an infection
other harmful things will follow soon.

Dr Chee gave us a few choices on how we would like to remove the bone:
1. I will have to open my mouth in an upright position,
then,he will numb my throat and I will have to pull
my tougue as far out as possibe. He willl then look for
the bone reach for it using a special forceps to grab it
out. But i must not gag, Dr Chee is aware tt i will gag
a lot so he suggests we try it this way first.
2. I will have to open my mouth lie down, then , he will
numb my throat with the medicine thingo again. This
time, all the procedures will be the same as the 1 option
just tt i will be able to gag although it is gonna be more
uncomfortable then the first option.
3. I will be placed under sedative. Dr Chee will pry open my,
mouth and remove the bone in less then 3 seconds. although
tt will incur more costs.

We tried the first 2 ways and luckily,
he managed to get the bone out in less then 5 seconds!!
He said tt the lesson learned is to belief in yourself cause i did not have faith in myself
but i said tt the lesson learn is neva to eat fish again
he joked and said tt tt is the second lesson to learn.

In the end,
we thanked him
he said tt i would not have to see him anymore haha!!
His fee were lik $500!!
and the hospital's $200 to $300!
In total almost $800!!!

I actually could not get my pockey money for like a year
but luckily we could claim from insurance!!!
Wheww!!
haha!!

If anyone needs to see a specialist on fish bones or sth else,
check out my next post!!

12 July 2007
Thursday

I got a fishbone stuck in my throat!!

2007-07-18T01:59:00.000-07:00
Last wednesday, my grangmother fed my with a piece of fish meat,
who would have expected,
there was still a fish bone stuck in there!!!!!

That evening i tried using all ways and methods trying to get the fish bone in,
but i just couldn't
it seemed an impossible task
the bone keep poking against me,
that made me feel really irritated!!!
My grandmother felt gulity tt day :(

That night, I could not sleep well.
I was tossing and turning on my bed as i felt the uncomfortable bone still there.
I had a bad day tt evening.

Read version two tt is somewhat the continuous version to find out more...

Last Day Of Trip

2007-07-09T23:11:00.000-07:00
At the last last day of my trip,
We went to the beach for a while,
then we saw this woman !!
She was TOPLESS!!
That was like soooooooooo SICK!!!

Haha my cuz Osel covered his dad's eyes!!!
He tried diverting his attention on sth else!!

Soon my cuz Denise and I got like totally SIAN!!
So we decided to go back top the hotel for a swim!
My Mum and I went by the back which was damn smelly!!

First my Mun and I wantedtoget intothe water,
but thenwe remembered that we lent the swimsuit to Denise.
We went to her hotel room to get it back
We saw Anut Pauline (her Mum) in the room busy packing their luggage.
My Mum asked her why was she packing the stuff so fast .
She said that her hotel room was specially choosen by the customers
so they had to leave ealier... :(
soo sad she also said that she will move some things to our room first
My Mumbeing a nice person of course said that it was fine
but our room was really messy
Mum decided to pack the stuff first then she will come and join us for the swim
Denise and I went swiming first..

Aftrer what seemed like my Mum finally came down to swim with us.
Soon everyone also returned from the beach
They jumped in the pool with us haha!!

We all had a go on the slide!!
Denise And I tried thinking of ways to slide down!!
Firstmy brodidn't dareslide down in the end,
HE DID IT!!!
We were all so happy for him cause he did not know how to swim!!

We then had lunch by the pool!!
My Mum foot the bill for it
We ate like 3 pizzas and 2 big bowls of fries!!
HAHA!!
At that point it seemed like the whole family owned the pool!!
COOL!!!

When it was time to check out everyone was quite disappointed... :(
We Packed our stuff and left for the airport.

The planewas delayed so eveyone became tired and hungry
We bought cup noodles to share with each other.
One cup costrs about like 5 DOLLARS!!
Damn expensive!!
Mum bought us some buns but we'd rather eat the cup noodles that my Aunt Ching bought
SORRY MUM!!!
But we really appreciated it.
She got us hot chocolate that tasted really nice when in the cold...
My poor cuz Osel was really cold so he forced himself to eat the cup noodles atlhough it was spicy!!

The plane arrived like only at 10.30 to 11.00pm!!
By the time we arrived at singapore it was already 2 plus!!
Then we saw Yu Ting there was she waiting for someone??
It was already soo late!!!

I really enjoyed my trip there..
THANKS MUM fot bringing Max and I there!!
I gtg BB!!!

Phuket our tripppp!!!

2007-06-22T08:20:00.000-07:00
My family went to Phuket,
and we like soooooo enjoyed ourselves!!

On the first day we boarded the plane,
we took a morning flight at about 7
but we had to be awake by 4.30
so tt we will be able to reach the airport at 5.30.

We reach the airport about the expected time, 5.30.
As we did not have breakfast yet,
my aunts brought us for breakfast in the airport!!
Ate and drank stuff like...

-soft boiled eggs
-kaya toast
-orange juice
-peanut butter toast

tt's about all cause i forgot wad I ate
sry didn't meant it!!

Then we went on the plane!!
Kay kay getting to the boring part,
I shall not talk about it then!!

when we arrived there,
we checked in and went for lunch
at night we went to night maket
saw many transvitites
GROSS!!!
One actually let her sleve down and we could see his which is now a her
NIPPLE! EWW!!!

The next day was boring did nothing
swam in the pool in the hotel RAMADA!!
I gtg
BB
cause using the comp in the hotel gonna close bb!!

22june2007
Friday

TY!!

2007-06-05T02:55:00.000-07:00
I just wanna thank Denise Yeo Jia Qi my cuz for helping miie wif the blog!! She very pro at this la!!!

Anyway I managed to do all this at her house.. :)
I caused her computer to lagg lol!

GTG
bb!!!

We went for beach cleaning + picnic!! Ms Mok is leavingX(

2007-05-23T22:44:00.000-07:00
We went for beach cleaning and class picnic today!!
It was so fun!
On the way there, I was listening to P. Sherman's ipod when I found out tt she had disney songs like bidtabi bodtabi boo! hahax
I couldn't get thew ipod off the songs were great!
At first, we said tt we will not listen to any english songs but in the end we did!!
I think I have listening cause the music she played I found it soft,
But she said tt it was actually very loud!!

During the beach cleaning,
P. Sherman and I were partners so we had to look for stuff together!!
We ended up finding stuff like

*glass fragments
*lollipop stick
*straw
*bottle cap
*cigerette

I don't think there is any thing left ba!!
Oh ya we found sea shells and crabs!!
I threw one in and made a wish I am sure you noee wad I wished for!
P. Sherman was very nice she wished tt my wish will come true! XD

After tt we started our class picnic by playing wacko!!
The boys were such a bother!
"Aiya! Don't play wacko la! So boring!" exclaimed the boys.
But we ignored them playing the game.
Felicia and we were talking for smack tt
soon we came up wif lots of different stuff!

1. smack tt
2.whack tt
3.punch tt
4.pinch tt
5.kick tt
6.throw tt
7.move tt
8.slap tt
9.tickle tt
10.poke tt
Still many more to go!!
Sry la! I fegettion!!

After tt game we played Captian's Ball!
Who won, who lost??
I don't noe!!

We had a feast during the picnic!
there was urm...

-fried rice
-cheese balls( don't think wrongly! )
-jelly
-chicken
-chips
-drinks( ice lemon tea, green tea, 100 plus, plain water, F&N zapple, christsantimum..etc)
-biscuits
-cookies
so on and so fourth

Then we were allowed to go to the playground but first we had to do the handouts
tt took up alot of our time sigh but we rushed through it!!
We played the pyramid thingo in the playgroud and some spinnig stuff! XD
Shucks I accdentally kicked 陈老师 she threatened to kick me back! haha
We were enjoying ourselves till Ms Annisa said it was time to leave..so sad X(

But, we enjoyed our way back from pasir ris park!
The five of us, Felicia, Chrystal, Rachel, Shirlyn and ME were cheering and singing!!
We sang...

+the wheels on the bus
+the right hand in song or sth
+baa baa DL
no more ba!

I was sooooooo fun till we reached school!!!!
But Ms Mok is leaving tmr...
So sad X(
We saw her taking photos wif the BN ppl
She said,"I am just like a pop-star!!"
But she waas still worried for the ppl here
she scolded Veronica cause she did not do her journal filing or sth..

kayskays P.Sherman is rushing me!!
I have to go now!!
Talk some other time!!

YAY! we made up!!

2007-05-23T22:33:00.000-07:00
I was so glad tt Felicia waved at me yesterday!!
Then Rachel talked to me!!
Then when it was time to go home, Chrysal waved and bade me goodbye!!!

No one can understand the happiness surging through me!!
When I reached home, I talked with Chrystal online she said that I was forgiven XD
We talked about 幸福双人床 and the little mermaid 1 and 2.
Got a secret fer you, Chrystal used to like Ariel! hahax!
We started sing songs from the littel mermaid cool rite?!

Look at this stuff isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete??
Wouldn't you think I am the girl, the girl who has everything??
...so on and so fourth!!

Poor unfortunate soul,
is sad, but true
balr blar..

SOOO... we made up!
I was screaming when I found tt out!!

SRY!!

2007-05-15T20:58:00.000-07:00
Sry for not blogging for like a super long time! My comp like somewhat disallows me to sign in to blogger or sth! This post is done in school pls don't blame me for not doing sry!! See you soon!!!!!! X(

Welcome

2006-11-21T00:50:00.000-08:00
Hello! welcome to my blog! haha anyhow create wan la i noe is maybe very ugly but i hope that no rude comments will be given.. haha